It’s been a while since my last post. Losing my best friend Linda has put me in a different space. I’ve been writing for Health Central’s MS site and that has distracted me from the more intimate posts that rest here… taking me away from my innermost thoughts. But I had a dream and I want to share how it felt.
I woke up this morning knowing I had a dream about Linda. Not because I remembered any details, more the feeling that I had to be reminded she is gone. Like for a second I could hop up and call her to say it had been too long since our last conversation.
And interestingly, I found a new and different kind of sadness as I fell into the day. One that can be concurrent with feeling happy and positive. It’s a glimpse of how it will be… because while I know I’m nowhere near that place… and some days will be harder than others… I have sight of what it will feel like when some days become most days.
If you are interested in my Health Central postings, follow this link. This is the first in a column about living with MS and parenting. It’s called MS aParent.